May Goals

Well hello there. It’s the beginning of May already – how the frick did that happen? Not that I’m complaining; the closer we get to nicer weather slightly more consistently, the better.

I feel a bit all over the place at the moment. A hasn’t been back at school for long so I feel like I’m still catching up, but at the same time work has been quite quiet at the moment so I feel a bit lost. I always have posts to write of course, but I seem to be lacking any inspiration and motivation which is a bit pants. I’m sleeping terribly and getting bad migraines too, which makes things a whole lot worse.

So I need to regain my focus, get back into a proper (and productive) routine, and crack on with shit.

Here are my goals for May.

To keep up exercising 5-6 times a week

I’m doing good again! Only for a couple of weeks mind, but I’ve been exercising consistently 6 days a week for a couple of weeks, and I feel like I’m almost at the point where it’s just a part of my routine again, which I need sooo much. I still hate it, still have to force myself to do it – but I’m seeing results and feeling a tiny bit better about myself again, so I WILL continue this time. I feel like all I ever talk about is either trying to get back into exercise, or the fact that I’ve just started and hope it can continue, but I suppose that’s life isn’t it. We just have to keep trying when we fail.

I’m doing purely Fitness Blender workouts at the moment – they are quick, effective, and kind of fun (ya know, as much as doing burpees, jump squats, and star jumps (THE HORROR) for half an hour can be). I want to start going to a couple of classes a week again too but I want to feel on top of everything a bit more first.

I wish I could make myself get up at 7am and exercise, which doesn’t sound too horrendous, but even opening my eyes at that time feels like the hardest thing in the world to me. I could just fit so much more into my day if I could force myself to do it, but I appear to be physically unable to make myself do that right now. I’ll keep working on it though.

To pause

I need to just chill out more and switch off. I think I say something along these lines a lot, but I’m still not really successfully doing it. At all. I’m far, far too addicted to my phone and I can’t work out why. I feel like it makes me more anxious and unsettled constantly picking it up and putting it down and flitting from one app to another all the time and I really wish I could stop. I don’t know if it’s that I feel like I’m going to miss out on something or what really, but I can feel that it’s not good for me and stops me concentrating on one thing at a time.

I think maybe when I feel like I’m failing at keeping on top of everything I feel like I need to be everywhere all at once. I’m trying to be good at Twitter and Instagram and Facebook and be publishing blog posts and trying to drive traffic, and getting freelance work, and so they’re all getting a tiny (and pretty useless) bit of me.

I need to take time to breathe deeply, focus on what I’m doing at any particular time and try and enjoy it, and leave my phone be. I can’t be everywhere, successfully all at once, and that’s okay.

Not get seasick

I’m going on a cruise in May for a couple of nights for a press trip and I’m very excited; it looks amazing. But last time I went on a ship I kind of swore I never would again. I spent the entire time feeling horrendous, and it’s such an awful feeling and it would be awful if I felt like that again. However, last time I was travelling through the Bay of Biscay which is notoriously bad, plus it was a ship as a mode of transport last time, and this is actually one to enjoy (if that makes any sense..) so I’m pretending it’s different. Plus! I will be able to see out of my room on this ship, and be able to go out onto a balcony, which I think will really help.

There’s so much fun stuff to do on the ship, and loads of amazing food and drink, so yeah I’m not going to get seasick.

I also have a kids birthday party, a night out with the girls for cheese and wine, and my usual hospital appointment in the next few weeks, so May is looking quite busy so far. I’m looking forward to it as I feel like I’ve been a bit of a hermit lately. Hopefully the weather will be nice too.

What have you got planned for May? Any things in particular you want to do?